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There are times when I stay online not because I need to do something but because there is nothing for me to do. This happens when my boys are napping and they have been taking naps almost daily now. I don’t normally take naps so I leave them alone and I stay in the living room on my computer so I won’t get bored. I usually watch Korean dramas but since I promised the husband I am going to refrain from doing that for now, I just do online searches on anything I think of the moment- words I don’t know the meaning of, images of random things I encounter online, information such as life insurance lead, online stores which accepts paypal, discounts and coupons, and sometimes playing word games like scrabble. There are so many things to do online especially when one has two to three hours to spare without interruption. I know I can spend this time either reading or watching movies but I have not had the urge to do these things right now which is a good thing since I am almost out of books and I don’t want to go to the Flea market as sick as we are here. Maybe in the coming days I will get to watch the DVDs I borrowed from the sister-in-law before the little man tears all the cases and the CDs up.

I decided to get a random book from the little man’s stash to read to him before he went to bed tonight. It turned out to be a book about construction equipments. Would you believe that? I mean a book for kids that contains pictures of heavy equipments. It was a present from one of our friends for Christmas. He looked at the pictures with me for a while until his brother and his wife came to visit. To him, they were more important even than going to bed and since it was still early I let him entertain our guests. I actually had to look online where those equipments belong. I thought it was under industrial equipment supplies but when I looked at the pictures it seemed like I am wrong. I need to have my facts straight because I can’t teach the little man wrong information.

I may head over to the stepson’s apartment today. The husband said the place is so cluttered and untidy. Why am I not surprised? Lol. This is when I think the wife should just spend her time cleaning other than whining about how miserable she is. I’d say if you don’t see any order around you then one would feel miserable. She had run home to spend the nights with her parents claiming every reason possible. Such a brat! I want to say a lot of things but I know it will just be futile. She needs to get out of la la land and come to the real world. She is not helping anybody at all. Anyway, I will try to put some order on their little place. I did this a few months ago too. Just being in their apartment a few minutes had my hand itching to toss every thing in the trash can. The husband promised his son I can go over and help him tidy the place up as long as he will help us with some yard work. Sounds good enough to me. I want to do someting anyway to keep my mind off other things such as feeling miserable because of a head cold. I have noticed that some women use their pregnancy as a reason not to lift a finger at home. I have a first hand experience with this from another member of the family and here it is happening again. It is not like they are sick or anything. I was pregnant too and I did all the house chores since the husband worked. I still even did most chores after I gave birth even if I had C-section. What can I do? There was nobody to help. I can go on and on but it will be pointless since the person involved does not care. I dread the day she gives birth. It will be chaos in their place not to mention the emotional trauma she will put the people around her in. I just want to help the stepson since he has been doing good lately. He works full time and goes to school too. We want him to stay focused that way although it won’t hurt if he too starts picking up after his own mess. Kids!

We are up again very early this morning. This will be a very long day for me. The little man woke up at four so here I am trying so hard to wake up while he is clearly awake and playing with his toys. The husband told me it is only four in the morning like I did not know the time. Duh! He knows I am not a morning person and there is no way I would get up this early on my own. He got up to fix coffee but went right back to bed when he saw the time. I wish I have the luxury to do that. It is a good thing the light fixtures and light switch in this duplex are made where a child can’t get to it easy. Although he tried to get on a chair to turn the kitchen light on to help me while I was washing his sippy cups. I hope we will go back to bed before the sun is up. I need at least another hour of sleep. Wish me luck.

Since we are going to move in a month or so, we have to do a lot of things besides boxing our stuff. I have been doing the packing little by little and it makes the planned move more and more real. We still do not know where to go though. We are confused, lol. Anyway, there are things to be dealt with like the electric, internet subscription, bank account that has to be closed (our current bank do not have a branch where we are planning to move), change of address, and the trip itself. It will be tedious for the husband who is not feeling good but we don’t have much choice. Hopefully before our lease is up we can come up with a decision whether to move up north or the coast. It is not an easy decision mind you and it is stressful just to even think about it. But decide we must.

For a while there the step-daughter kept on telling us we need to buy life insurance policies so in case something happens to either one of us, the other will get some benefits. Her and her husband have their life insurance after they got married. She even showed us online life insurance policies and told us which is the best provider and what to do to get it. Well, it had been over two years and we still have not buy any. The husband does not want to do it. I can’t make a decision concerning it. But when I think about the said benefits it does sound good. I don’t know how I can convince the husband about it though. And to be honest, we don’t really have the money to pay for premium.

Yesterday was the only day it had not storm so the husband asked me to mow the front yard. I did not really want to since I was busy watching my Korean drama but I know he will feel offended so I did it anyway. The storm caused the limbs to fall off from the tree and so I had to pick it up before doing anything. I also had to do the neighbor’s yard (we live in a duplex and the front yard is not fenced) but I did not get any thanks for it, lol. I did it for the husband anyway and if he is happy I am fine with it. I hate to do chores like this because it requires time and effort but this is one of the things I have to do to help the  husband with so I am doing it. No, he does not require me to do it. I just want to do it so he will not worry. He does not like it when the grass in the yard is overgrown or there are litters in it. It will be two weeks before I get to do it again and I must admit even if it is tiring it is some kind of exercise which I badly need. Maybe this weekend I will do the backyard.