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The husband has been trying to convince his son to quit smoking. He started out pretty early and his father is afraid for his health. The kid does not seem to care. He would say he has been trying to quit but I don’t see any changes. He still puffs. He even switched to cigars at one time and he might have thought he looked cool but he actually looked funny, a kid who wanted so much to look like an adult. He had cheap cigars though, not some brand like Rocky Patel or anything like that. Now he is back to cigarettes and he does smoke like there is no tomorrow. There are times he will be at the house and when smoking comes up as a topic he would say he has not smoked in days only to get outside and smoke clearly belying his words. Maybe some day he will quit. It is really hard to force somebody to quit when they are not ready because then it will just fall on deaf ears.

Today was a slow day for me. It actually was  boring. The little man and I stayed indoors while the husband had to accompany his older son on some important legal mission. I cleaned everything even if it did not need cleaning. I took care of the little man’s needs. I even cooked several dishes to store in the fridge. It still gave me plenty of time to spare. So I alternately read a book and get online to keep busy while the little man was busy in his own little world. I had to keep an eye on him because he has had a cold and he has runny nose. It is not something to get alarmed over though, it might just be caused by the weather. I hope he will feel better soon though. I received a newsletter from his insurance the other day and it reminded me that his insurance needs to be renewed soon. We like this company so we might stick with them that way I don’t have to worry about  insurance quotes and research anymore. Anyway, the day is almost over and it is almost bed time. My boys are in bed early and I could continue doing stuff but I might as well go to bed early. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Today is a lucky day for me and the husband. A few days ago he told me there will be no presents for me for Christmas and my birthday (which falls the day after Christmas) because we are kinda short on finances. I said I understand. I would rather we pay our bills on time than have an expensive gift and worry about having to pay late fees and all that. But the husband felt guilty and thought that to give me something I would like no matter how cheap and common that was. So he bought me a five dollar lottery scratch card. And what do you know? I won! I am now $250 richer, lol. I was so happy and he could not believe our luck. We went home happy and wishing each other a merry Christmas. The little man is not the only member of the family who got Christmas presents after all. Mom and Dad got theirs too. Yes, I shared the money with him because he did pay for the card. We are very grateful to Santa for our present.

My first year here in the US I had high hopes of going out and looking for a job after the husband and I got married. We talked about me working too so I will not get bored while the husband was at work. I wanted to work no matter if I was full of apprehension of what the work place will be like. I did not know what to do so I did searches on what resumes look like here so I can change mine to fit in. I even submitted my resume online on several companies where I wanted to work and hoped I will get hired. I did not get to do any work though. Not the nine to five kind anyway. I got pregnant right away and the husband and I talked and decided I should just stay home and take care of our child which I did. I have no regrets although there are times I still wonder if I should ever be able to work outside the home again. It had been years since I last worked and I don’t know if I will fit in right away should I work again. I know I will eventually have to either work or go back to school to better myself. The little man is getting big and in a few years he will be in school. I need to have something else to do to be productive. It might be time to get out the old resumes and start working on it again. I am not very confident of my qualifications anymore though. It is crazy. Now that the prospect of  working is at hand, I am nervous and having second thoughts. I need a boost on my self confidence for sure.

Today is a cold day. And I mean cold. And the worst thing is that our furnace seems to be not working. The husband and I agreed that the air from the vent is cool instead of warm. We do not know why it is doing that and we are not going to check it either. The little man does not seem to mind but then he favors the cold weather more so this is probably comfortable for him. He already took his sweater off and he is only wearing a shirt and shorts while his parents are all bundled up. The husband is in bed trying to keep warm while I am here to keep an eye on the little man, still in my jeans shoes and jacket. I am dreaming of nice, warm heated mattress pads to curl up in while doing this post. My extremities are cold. My hands are in fact almost numb although the thermostat registers a whooping 70 degrees. So tell me, could it be that there is something wrong with the adults in this household? Lol. I know if I kick the thermostat a few more degrees the little man will complain so we will just have to deal with this cold. Perhaps I will plug the portable heater in one of the rooms and stay in it for minutes at a time to keep warm. But then it will not solve the imminent problem in other areas of the house. I am longing for the warm weather of my parent’s place. Maybe in the years to come if we can afford it we will be spending time there instead of having to deal with Winter here.

I am taking vitamin supplements again. It is not a good idea considering when I feel a pang in my stomach I eat and of course the more I eat the more I gain weight but I think it is for my own good. Sorta. I know I have not been eating right. I eat what I can get hold of regardless if it is healthy or not. I am trying to balance it by taking supplements and see if I will notice any difference in the weeks to come. I hope to lose weight but the way it is working is that I am gaining more anyway. I am officially 105 lbs as of last week. Five pounds heavier three years ago. It is not a good sign since I am not even five feet. I am lazy don’t have the time to work out and I don’t have discipline when it comes to what I eat so here I am raking my rewards. I would love to get back in shape little by little, you know. Going to the gym to get back in shape. I am not aiming for perfect figure nor will I need bodybuilding supplements since I don’t dream of being that fit. I just want my old self back. I know I need to get my butt off the computer chair and start doing something but allow me some self-pity okay? Maybe I will make losing weight my New Year’s resolution.

It has been a while since I made a post. There is nothing much going on that’s why. We stay home most of the time due to the cold weather. Our tree is up and well decorated although I am itching to buy more decorations until the tree could not hold it anymore, lol. The husband put two gifts under the tree yesterday, one for the little man and one for the grandson. Well, the little man searched for his name, found it in one of the boxes and ripped the wrapper to pieces. He sure knows how to spoil a surprise We have more in the closet though so it was fine. Now his father knows to listen to me when I give him advice.

I am planning to buy a stereo system. Not grand. Just something to play a CD or listen to some soothing FM station (if I can find one). Our old set quit over a year ago and I strongly believe this household needs some sound other than  my constant yelling. I must tell you I even get annoyed listening to myself. Hopefully I can find something cheap yet durable. I might need luck with that. As for Christmas, by the looks of it, we will spend it at home. Probably with as little food as possible so as not to waste any. I want to write more but I have to get off here so I can prepare the Christmas cards we are going to send to family and friends. It is something the husband wants me I have to do so ciao!

The holidays are coming. I am talking about Christmas, my birthday, and the New Year. Yes, I consider my birthday a holiday too, at least for me. I am not expecting gifts this year. I think the husband has given me enough to be thankful for. Besides I don’t really want him to spend money on anything I might not use for a long time. We have received catalogs in the mail with all kinds of “ideas” on gifts for her and gifts for him and gifts for kids but I found them all to be expensive. Things are overpriced nowadays that you might think that the economy is doing well. Well, we have other things to spend money on such as bills and food. I will understand if I will not get any material gifts this year. Although I must admit there is one thing I really really want to have but I don’t have any idea how I will get it or if it is even possible. That does not mean I will stop wishing. Maybe Santa will grant me that wish since I have been good lately